I had a.. very interesting evening, to say the least. hehe... I'll start from, well, what could be called the begining.
Last night, Angela spent the night. I mentioned that I had plans to go to the movies with someone, but that I was unsure of what time. So, she called him, and left a message, pretending to be me. I thought he was going to think I was a pyscho. He called back later, Angela explained, we set a time to go to the movies, and it was all good.
Today, Angela, Kelsey, Erica, and I all went to the movies. He was in line behind us, to get his ticket. Angela didn't actually know him before tonight, so, she thought he was some stranger. She turned around, read his shirt, and started a conversation with him. lmao, she's just a friendly person. ;) She felt extremely stupid when she figured out who he was, though. We went, sat down, watched the movie. The whole thing passed without being even remotely eventful. We didn't even hold hands. -sniffle- So, towards the end, I started thinking. -giggles- I know, I know. That can't possibly be good. I promised myself that, no matter what, I would kiss him on the cheek before the movie ended. For a long time, I just sat there, trying to convince myself to go through with it. I tried to reassure myself that he wouldn't freak out(even though I was terrified that he might), and that I would regret it if I didn't. I kept telling myself that regreting -not- doing something is one thousand times worse than regretting something you've done. So, finally, I worked up the nerve to... yeah. I took a deep breath, and scooted towards him. Before I did anything, I whispered, "Sometimes I really think I'm pyscho myself." heh, inside joke. He thinks Angela's a pyscho. -grin- Anyway, back to the story. That having been said, I just, leaned forward, and, well... kissed him. On the cheek. I wouldn't have been able to kiss him on the lips, not when I was so unsure about how he would react to just a kiss on the cheek. There were only like, 30 seconds left in the movie, so, we left the theatre soon afterwards. So, we stood outside talking, waiting for everyone's rides to show up. I was scared, terrified, that he was going to react oddly, or... something. I really, really wonder what he was thinking when I kissed him... But, anyway, we were standing outside, and Mi called. She wanted to see the 9:40 movie. I told her that since I was already at the cinema, I would stay, and watch it with her. Angela decided she would to, and Nick said he also wanted to stay. My sigh of relief, at that point, could probably be heard miles away. If he had been freaked out, or put off in any way by my.. ahem, yeah, he wouldn't have wanted to stay. I was really looking forward to the next movie, just to see how everything would.. turn out. Well, the way it happened, none of us could stay at the movies. Yeah...
I wish that I could know what was going through his head when I kissed him. I hope... I hope his opinion of me didn't change. I'm pretty sure it wouldn't have, I mean, what guy would honestly freak out about being kissed on the cheek? I'm -fairly- sure he was.. okay with it. Ugh, I have no idea. I need to talk to him about it... -sighs- I really want to know what he thought. Do I regret it? No, I can honestly say that I don't. Would I have regretted not doing it? In all liklihood, yes. -grin- I'm becoming more confident, more of the person I want to be...
Okay, well, I guess that's all for now. Another entry soon.