Shards... I knew it since the moment he asked her to dance, in that odd way of his, but... Maybe I just didn't want to admit it. Maybe I thought that if I went on pretending that I hadn't seen the way he looked at her, it would somehow make it as if it had never happened. I was wrong, and that knowledge hurts more than anything. First of all, I want to make a brief note about their conversation. He admitted that he liked me, "a litte." That's a good thing, I guess. -sigh- It just means that he likes her a lot. I mean, how could he -not- like her? Everyone does. Everyone loves Lauren. I mean, why wouldn't they? She's gorgeous, intelligent, nice, with an awesome personality. I adore her, as a friend. And, I know without a doubt that she does not like him, and does not want to steal him. That thought doesn't seem to lessen the pain. Okay... I'm going to explain.
She thinks I'm wrong. She thinks that he doesn't like her. But... She didn't see the way he -looked- at her. He looked at her like.. like he was in awe of her, like he admired her and.. damnit, like he cared about her. Yeah... That was it. He looked at her like he cared deeply about her, something beyond friendship. I sat there, and watched them dance, not pausing, for 2 or 3 slow songs. At that moment, I was happy, and I didn't mind watching them together. I even decided to take their picture together, dancing. So, I walked up to them, and looked through the view thingy in the camera. I said, "Smile!" Lauren looked at me, and grinned, in a way that would suggest that she was enjoying herself, but simply because she was dancing with someone besides Collin, and because her evil scheme had worked, sort of. Not an evil scheme to dance with him. =P Different thing entirely. But, then, Nick looked at me, and my heart just... sank. He was smiling, smiling like he never wanted to leave that moment, never wanted to leave Lauren's arms. I had to pause, with the camera to my face, and just... think, for a few split seconds. Then, I clicked the camera, and returned to my seat. Today, when I went to Lauren's, I told her that I thought he liked her. She didn't believe me at all.
Later on, we went to a special tool safety clinic. Heather was there, who I danced with while he danced with Lauren. One of the first things she said to Lauren and I was, "Nick likes you, Lauren." Even she had noticed it. I'm not FiretrUCKING imagining things. I'm not just being stupid. And I'm not the only one to realize... Realize that he has feelings for her. Now, I almost want it to be Monday, just so I can ask him how he feels about her. I just hope he answers honestly. I just want to know the truth. -sigh-
On a more pleasant note, the pictures of Lauren and I turned out wonderfully. We look stunning. It's no wonder he likes her. Ugh. I need to just... think about all of this. Another entry soon.